Tag: psychology
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There are so many things I wish older self could tell me
I’m sitting down to reflect on what I’ve learned at this mid-year point, and I’m realizing there is still so much further to go… My gut tells me the gurus are right, the goal of life is to realize you’re not your mind…I have found and viscerally experienced that this is where true freedom lies,…
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The Beauty of Bipolar – it wakes You up
I’m not saying that bipolar isn’t the most challenging, heart-wrenching, stare-into-the-abyss-and-scream mental illness there is, but I AM saying there’s a reason for it. And I will explain why in the following: Bipolar disorder is, first, and foremost, a mood disorder. It affects our moods, and as Adyashanti, popular meditation and spiritual teacher, points out,…
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a sweet day, today
The day is sweet. My life is filled with charisma, and I dance with unicorns and belay into the red-wooded forest as my sweat transforms into sod-y pop, rich with the nutrients of a gay dandelion. At least this is what my soul would have me believe. In reality, in MY reality none-the-less, I am…
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I am not my mind
It sounds so ethereal, and from one’s perspective it could be. I was sitting at a campsite in the Grand Canyon, reading Eckhart Tolle quotes. Being someone who has suppressed MUCH negativity because of the fear of being ‘bad’, at this point in my life I was depressed, borderline suicidal, and had much social anxiety.…
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Love
I’m realizing that to truly live an authentic and freedom-filled life, there are steps one must take (well, everyone has a different list of steps, but here are mine): Love yourself first, and by this I mean, don’t let others’ opinions of you matter, or your projections of others’ opinions of you. And if they…
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We have 2 choices, really, when responding to struggles
First, we can choose to approach suffering and the atrocities of this world by responding to hate with more hate and divisiveness within each other. (Or, we can respond to these situations through witness consciousness, which I’ll get to, below!). Right now I have jarring emotional responses to two specific global issues that come to…
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I love the night
I love the night because it is still. Still with the calm awareness that there is an incessant hum of the universe. Yet alive with the life that awakens with the night. Unrealized dreams run rampant. Lost souls yearn to awaken. Egos fall to the ground as the mind softens with the falling sun; the…
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a trip down memory lane.
(That photo, above, is right after my first psychotic breakdown, 2016; and right before I lost myself in an eating disorder that plagued my mind, 2017.) My name is Bri W. and I’m a life-aholic. And by that, what I mean is, I have tried to squeeze every ounce of life out of my 28.5…
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7+/10 day yesterday at Sprouts
My therapist told me the other week that I should start grading my moods, to make sure I’m not getting manic. I thought that was a ridiculous idea at the time, but I’m liking the idea of sharing here. I had a pretty good day yesterday. I took two friends to church who I cannot…
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