Tag: love
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Am I insane?
Sometimes I question my sanity. And it’s not when I’m about to go cliff diving, bungee jumping, or any of the above. (Although I would question my sanity then, too!) When I question my sanity, I’m usually doing something fun, something exciting, something that makes me feel alive. This morning I woke up at 5:15…
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4 things I’ve learned since starting meditation in October
I’ve been meditating for two-ish months now, first for 20 minutes twice a day, now for 40 minutes twice a day…in a month I’ll be meditating for an hour twice a day, time permitting. Here’s what I’ve learned since starting back in October: What does your meditation journey look like? What’s been the biggest challenge…
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things are about to change
I’ve been working through some medication changes with my doctor and things have been appearing bleak to me. I’ve been sleeping over 12 hours every night, struggling with my mind & thoughts, not exercising enough or meditating, and overall managing a pretty negative self-image. I’m going to start practicing the 5-4-3-2-1 rule to start waking…
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surrender
The mind is filled, no SWIMMING with little fish, big fish, sharks even. “Be happy, you deserve it.” “No one gets you, don’t bother trying.” “You’ll never find happiness, no matter where you look.” The hunter bird in me begs to dive to the bottom of the ocean and find a fish…but my consciousness says…
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sinking into my heart
I sit in my bed and let the consciousness of my mind sink down into my heart. Out of my thoughts, out of my mind, out of the playground that’s currently being inhabited by ten rowdy kids. I sink into this oasis of peace that is the consciousness of my body and begin to feel…
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a sweet day, today
The day is sweet. My life is filled with charisma, and I dance with unicorns and belay into the red-wooded forest as my sweat transforms into sod-y pop, rich with the nutrients of a gay dandelion. At least this is what my soul would have me believe. In reality, in MY reality none-the-less, I am…
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I am not my mind
It sounds so ethereal, and from one’s perspective it could be. I was sitting at a campsite in the Grand Canyon, reading Eckhart Tolle quotes. Being someone who has suppressed MUCH negativity because of the fear of being ‘bad’, at this point in my life I was depressed, borderline suicidal, and had much social anxiety.…
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Winning? What does it mean?
I used to think winning was receiving a medal or trophy I realize now, the meaning of it all, its so much more than me It’s asking what you can do for the beggar on the street, Or even spending time with loved ones, it’s more than just a treat. To sum it up: I…
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Love
I’m realizing that to truly live an authentic and freedom-filled life, there are steps one must take (well, everyone has a different list of steps, but here are mine): Love yourself first, and by this I mean, don’t let others’ opinions of you matter, or your projections of others’ opinions of you. And if they…
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Love is
A dancing shoe, searching for its partner One lovely lime, awaiting its cerveza A pair of blocks bought together at the store Wreaths at Christmas scattered around the town Love is to be set free from it all, dancing around the city with no reservations or fear Love is to be running from nothing and,…
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