Tag: God
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4 things I’ve learned since starting meditation in October
I’ve been meditating for two-ish months now, first for 20 minutes twice a day, now for 40 minutes twice a day…in a month I’ll be meditating for an hour twice a day, time permitting. Here’s what I’ve learned since starting back in October: What does your meditation journey look like? What’s been the biggest challenge…
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surrender
The mind is filled, no SWIMMING with little fish, big fish, sharks even. “Be happy, you deserve it.” “No one gets you, don’t bother trying.” “You’ll never find happiness, no matter where you look.” The hunter bird in me begs to dive to the bottom of the ocean and find a fish…but my consciousness says…
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sinking into my heart
I sit in my bed and let the consciousness of my mind sink down into my heart. Out of my thoughts, out of my mind, out of the playground that’s currently being inhabited by ten rowdy kids. I sink into this oasis of peace that is the consciousness of my body and begin to feel…
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There are so many things I wish older self could tell me
I’m sitting down to reflect on what I’ve learned at this mid-year point, and I’m realizing there is still so much further to go… My gut tells me the gurus are right, the goal of life is to realize you’re not your mind…I have found and viscerally experienced that this is where true freedom lies,…
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I am not my mind
It sounds so ethereal, and from one’s perspective it could be. I was sitting at a campsite in the Grand Canyon, reading Eckhart Tolle quotes. Being someone who has suppressed MUCH negativity because of the fear of being ‘bad’, at this point in my life I was depressed, borderline suicidal, and had much social anxiety.…
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What is suffering?
I had a fruitful conversation with my spiritual teacher a few days ago, who shared with me her belief that all beings will suffer, as long as they’re on earth. “Look around,” she said, “The planet is dying, it’s part of life for all beings to suffer.” As she was saying these words, something in…
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Love
I’m realizing that to truly live an authentic and freedom-filled life, there are steps one must take (well, everyone has a different list of steps, but here are mine): Love yourself first, and by this I mean, don’t let others’ opinions of you matter, or your projections of others’ opinions of you. And if they…
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We have 2 choices, really, when responding to struggles
First, we can choose to approach suffering and the atrocities of this world by responding to hate with more hate and divisiveness within each other. (Or, we can respond to these situations through witness consciousness, which I’ll get to, below!). Right now I have jarring emotional responses to two specific global issues that come to…
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Alcoholism
Today I gave my life to God, but in a way I hadn’t before. I decided to give up the notion that I would one day be able to drink again in a healthy manner. I have been incessantly, inCESSANTLY, living in the future when it comes to my “healing” and it has been a…
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Because I’m rebellious I’m going to
Because I’m rebellious I’m going to Establish my Self on here as two beings my lower case self, AKA the ego, that wants to be “tiktok” famous and run the world, as a Jesus Christ reincarnated being (I have a diagnosis of bipolar and struggle with this when I’m manic) status. My Higher Case Self,…
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