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I hate myself -says me. I love myself -says Me.
Oh my gosh God is so good. -says my Higher Power. Life is so, so hard and scary. -says my wounded inner child, Gertrude. (Wounded inner child Bri has been named Gertrude, to remind myself that although she is a part of me, she also, paradoxically is not “who” I am. Does this make sense? …
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Gratitude becomes you
The gratitude It overwhelms my heart, To be a part of such a collective awakening of souls on this planet, Awakening to the divinity within. Awakening to Christ consciousness, Awakening to Love.
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life
it’s life. I know that. but it’s my life, so it feels insurmountably larger, and so hard to let go of. my monkey mind says I’ll never be happy, after a full three months of manic psychosis. my mind, is the issue. God loves me, unconditionally. My family has been my rock and my support…
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I see flowers
Daisies, petunias, roses, and lilacs My world ignites in colors – no more sad, dark, bleak black Succulents, wildflowers, tulips, and berries Round and around we go, God I know always carries I can see it in color, I can see it evolve in the sand, The blue birds make it pretty songs – I…
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things are about to change
I’ve been working through some medication changes with my doctor and things have been appearing bleak to me. I’ve been sleeping over 12 hours every night, struggling with my mind & thoughts, not exercising enough or meditating, and overall managing a pretty negative self-image. I’m going to start practicing the 5-4-3-2-1 rule to start waking…
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sinking into my heart
I sit in my bed and let the consciousness of my mind sink down into my heart. Out of my thoughts, out of my mind, out of the playground that’s currently being inhabited by ten rowdy kids. I sink into this oasis of peace that is the consciousness of my body and begin to feel…
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why
Why. An egoic thought. Ah. Instant peace flushes my system and brings me back to the serenity that I have been experiencing for the past month. In the instant that I recognize my suffering as egoic, I have found it to be easier and easier to release. Let’s tackle a question bigger than the existential…
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dreams
I’m living my dream life and it feels damn good but then I sit back and question, is it all for the cause? am I doing good? there must be something in the water because I’m turning and I ain’t going back
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I am not my mind
It sounds so ethereal, and from one’s perspective it could be. I was sitting at a campsite in the Grand Canyon, reading Eckhart Tolle quotes. Being someone who has suppressed MUCH negativity because of the fear of being ‘bad’, at this point in my life I was depressed, borderline suicidal, and had much social anxiety.…
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Winning? What does it mean?
I used to think winning was receiving a medal or trophy I realize now, the meaning of it all, its so much more than me It’s asking what you can do for the beggar on the street, Or even spending time with loved ones, it’s more than just a treat. To sum it up: I…
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