Category: bipolar
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4 things I’ve learned since starting meditation in October
I’ve been meditating for two-ish months now, first for 20 minutes twice a day, now for 40 minutes twice a day…in a month I’ll be meditating for an hour twice a day, time permitting. Here’s what I’ve learned since starting back in October: What does your meditation journey look like? What’s been the biggest challenge…
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things are about to change
I’ve been working through some medication changes with my doctor and things have been appearing bleak to me. I’ve been sleeping over 12 hours every night, struggling with my mind & thoughts, not exercising enough or meditating, and overall managing a pretty negative self-image. I’m going to start practicing the 5-4-3-2-1 rule to start waking…
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sinking into my heart
I sit in my bed and let the consciousness of my mind sink down into my heart. Out of my thoughts, out of my mind, out of the playground that’s currently being inhabited by ten rowdy kids. I sink into this oasis of peace that is the consciousness of my body and begin to feel…
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There are so many things I wish older self could tell me
I’m sitting down to reflect on what I’ve learned at this mid-year point, and I’m realizing there is still so much further to go… My gut tells me the gurus are right, the goal of life is to realize you’re not your mind…I have found and viscerally experienced that this is where true freedom lies,…
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The Beauty of Bipolar – it wakes You up
I’m not saying that bipolar isn’t the most challenging, heart-wrenching, stare-into-the-abyss-and-scream mental illness there is, but I AM saying there’s a reason for it. And I will explain why in the following: Bipolar disorder is, first, and foremost, a mood disorder. It affects our moods, and as Adyashanti, popular meditation and spiritual teacher, points out,…
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a sweet day, today
The day is sweet. My life is filled with charisma, and I dance with unicorns and belay into the red-wooded forest as my sweat transforms into sod-y pop, rich with the nutrients of a gay dandelion. At least this is what my soul would have me believe. In reality, in MY reality none-the-less, I am…
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Winning? What does it mean?
I used to think winning was receiving a medal or trophy I realize now, the meaning of it all, its so much more than me It’s asking what you can do for the beggar on the street, Or even spending time with loved ones, it’s more than just a treat. To sum it up: I…
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Love
I’m realizing that to truly live an authentic and freedom-filled life, there are steps one must take (well, everyone has a different list of steps, but here are mine): Love yourself first, and by this I mean, don’t let others’ opinions of you matter, or your projections of others’ opinions of you. And if they…
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Dear depression,
You rattle me in ways that I cannot even begin to describe. You rob me of my future, in my own ways my past. There are so many things I want to accomplish, depression, I want to go to grad school, learn languages, do art and write, you tell me none of that is worthwhile,…
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We have 2 choices, really, when responding to struggles
First, we can choose to approach suffering and the atrocities of this world by responding to hate with more hate and divisiveness within each other. (Or, we can respond to these situations through witness consciousness, which I’ll get to, below!). Right now I have jarring emotional responses to two specific global issues that come to…
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