Category: healing
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things are about to change
I’ve been working through some medication changes with my doctor and things have been appearing bleak to me. I’ve been sleeping over 12 hours every night, struggling with my mind & thoughts, not exercising enough or meditating, and overall managing a pretty negative self-image. I’m going to start practicing the 5-4-3-2-1 rule to start waking…
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surrender
The mind is filled, no SWIMMING with little fish, big fish, sharks even. “Be happy, you deserve it.” “No one gets you, don’t bother trying.” “You’ll never find happiness, no matter where you look.” The hunter bird in me begs to dive to the bottom of the ocean and find a fish…but my consciousness says…
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sinking into my heart
I sit in my bed and let the consciousness of my mind sink down into my heart. Out of my thoughts, out of my mind, out of the playground that’s currently being inhabited by ten rowdy kids. I sink into this oasis of peace that is the consciousness of my body and begin to feel…
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There are so many things I wish older self could tell me
I’m sitting down to reflect on what I’ve learned at this mid-year point, and I’m realizing there is still so much further to go… My gut tells me the gurus are right, the goal of life is to realize you’re not your mind…I have found and viscerally experienced that this is where true freedom lies,…
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The Beauty of Bipolar – it wakes You up
I’m not saying that bipolar isn’t the most challenging, heart-wrenching, stare-into-the-abyss-and-scream mental illness there is, but I AM saying there’s a reason for it. And I will explain why in the following: Bipolar disorder is, first, and foremost, a mood disorder. It affects our moods, and as Adyashanti, popular meditation and spiritual teacher, points out,…
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I am not my mind
It sounds so ethereal, and from one’s perspective it could be. I was sitting at a campsite in the Grand Canyon, reading Eckhart Tolle quotes. Being someone who has suppressed MUCH negativity because of the fear of being ‘bad’, at this point in my life I was depressed, borderline suicidal, and had much social anxiety.…
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What is suffering?
I had a fruitful conversation with my spiritual teacher a few days ago, who shared with me her belief that all beings will suffer, as long as they’re on earth. “Look around,” she said, “The planet is dying, it’s part of life for all beings to suffer.” As she was saying these words, something in…
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Winning? What does it mean?
I used to think winning was receiving a medal or trophy I realize now, the meaning of it all, its so much more than me It’s asking what you can do for the beggar on the street, Or even spending time with loved ones, it’s more than just a treat. To sum it up: I…
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Love is
A dancing shoe, searching for its partner One lovely lime, awaiting its cerveza A pair of blocks bought together at the store Wreaths at Christmas scattered around the town Love is to be set free from it all, dancing around the city with no reservations or fear Love is to be running from nothing and,…
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“The more energy and intention I bring to my faith, the more fearless and free I am.”
I absolutely LOVE Gabby Bernstein’s Universe deck (pictured above); I use it every other day and it completely resets my brain to align with love. Give your life to God, is what I’m hearing in reading this card, whether you call it Universe, Jesus, Christ Consciousness or Spirit, giving your life to God will release…
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