Category: God
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surrender
The mind is filled, no SWIMMING with little fish, big fish, sharks even. “Be happy, you deserve it.” “No one gets you, don’t bother trying.” “You’ll never find happiness, no matter where you look.” The hunter bird in me begs to dive to the bottom of the ocean and find a fish…but my consciousness says…
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sinking into my heart
I sit in my bed and let the consciousness of my mind sink down into my heart. Out of my thoughts, out of my mind, out of the playground that’s currently being inhabited by ten rowdy kids. I sink into this oasis of peace that is the consciousness of my body and begin to feel…
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There are so many things I wish older self could tell me
I’m sitting down to reflect on what I’ve learned at this mid-year point, and I’m realizing there is still so much further to go… My gut tells me the gurus are right, the goal of life is to realize you’re not your mind…I have found and viscerally experienced that this is where true freedom lies,…
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What is suffering?
I had a fruitful conversation with my spiritual teacher a few days ago, who shared with me her belief that all beings will suffer, as long as they’re on earth. “Look around,” she said, “The planet is dying, it’s part of life for all beings to suffer.” As she was saying these words, something in…
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Winning? What does it mean?
I used to think winning was receiving a medal or trophy I realize now, the meaning of it all, its so much more than me It’s asking what you can do for the beggar on the street, Or even spending time with loved ones, it’s more than just a treat. To sum it up: I…
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We have 2 choices, really, when responding to struggles
First, we can choose to approach suffering and the atrocities of this world by responding to hate with more hate and divisiveness within each other. (Or, we can respond to these situations through witness consciousness, which I’ll get to, below!). Right now I have jarring emotional responses to two specific global issues that come to…
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Alcoholism
Today I gave my life to God, but in a way I hadn’t before. I decided to give up the notion that I would one day be able to drink again in a healthy manner. I have been incessantly, inCESSANTLY, living in the future when it comes to my “healing” and it has been a…
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Because I’m rebellious I’m going to
Because I’m rebellious I’m going to Establish my Self on here as two beings my lower case self, AKA the ego, that wants to be “tiktok” famous and run the world, as a Jesus Christ reincarnated being (I have a diagnosis of bipolar and struggle with this when I’m manic) status. My Higher Case Self,…
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I haven’t written much
I haven’t written much There’s so much to do, So little time I wonder if I can pair a reason with a rhyme I want to dance with wolves and pray with lions Please God, bring me balance I don’t want to be lyin’ Thank you for gifting me patience and giving me Love, but…
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I love the night
I love the night because it is still. Still with the calm awareness that there is an incessant hum of the universe. Yet alive with the life that awakens with the night. Unrealized dreams run rampant. Lost souls yearn to awaken. Egos fall to the ground as the mind softens with the falling sun; the…
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