Category: bipolar
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God is so Good
I feel so blessed. And taken care of. I was reading comments I made about four years ago to someone who helped me immensely – and I began to go down the shame cycle. “I’m not worthy of happiness.” “I’m a bad person.” “I don’t deserve to be loved.” STOP! Then I remember- “Injured people…
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I hate myself -says me. I love myself -says Me.
Oh my gosh God is so good. -says my Higher Power. Life is so, so hard and scary. -says my wounded inner child, Gertrude. (Wounded inner child Bri has been named Gertrude, to remind myself that although she is a part of me, she also, paradoxically is not “who” I am. Does this make sense? …
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Tidings
Good tidings The Christmas season is almost upon us And yet, we still struggle with depression, and unrest. What do you do to stay positive amidst all of the earthly brokenness? I have found Christ in a way never experienced before. I have been reading the Bible, praying, and giving of my time and $…
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World Mental Health Day
October 10th was World Mental Health Day, a day that was started in 1992, with the initiative of Deputy Secretary General Richard Hunter. And today I am hoping that in sharing my journey through mental illness, I can be of service to someone struggling with bipolar, schizoaffective, anxiety, or depression. November 16th is the annual, local NAMI…
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I see flowers
Daisies, petunias, roses, and lilacs My world ignites in colors – no more sad, dark, bleak black Succulents, wildflowers, tulips, and berries Round and around we go, God I know always carries I can see it in color, I can see it evolve in the sand, The blue birds make it pretty songs – I…
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loving myself first
I wonder why more people don’t take the time to figure out who they truly are. Don’t wonder, underneath the skin and brain and ego, what they would become without it? I don’t wonder. I know. I would be Love I would be Love. In its purest form; without the anxiety and depression, hatred and…
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Am I insane?
Sometimes I question my sanity. And it’s not when I’m about to go cliff diving, bungee jumping, or any of the above. (Although I would question my sanity then, too!) When I question my sanity, I’m usually doing something fun, something exciting, something that makes me feel alive. This morning I woke up at 5:15…
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things are about to change
I’ve been working through some medication changes with my doctor and things have been appearing bleak to me. I’ve been sleeping over 12 hours every night, struggling with my mind & thoughts, not exercising enough or meditating, and overall managing a pretty negative self-image. I’m going to start practicing the 5-4-3-2-1 rule to start waking…
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There are so many things I wish older self could tell me
I’m sitting down to reflect on what I’ve learned at this mid-year point, and I’m realizing there is still so much further to go… My gut tells me the gurus are right, the goal of life is to realize you’re not your mind…I have found and viscerally experienced that this is where true freedom lies,…
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The Beauty of Bipolar – it wakes You up
I’m not saying that bipolar isn’t the most challenging, heart-wrenching, stare-into-the-abyss-and-scream mental illness there is, but I AM saying there’s a reason for it. And I will explain why in the following: Bipolar disorder is, first, and foremost, a mood disorder. It affects our moods, and as Adyashanti, popular meditation and spiritual teacher, points out,…
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