Author: Brianna
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Am I insane?
Sometimes I question my sanity. And it’s not when I’m about to go cliff diving, bungee jumping, or any of the above. (Although I would question my sanity then, too!) When I question my sanity, I’m usually doing something fun, something exciting, something that makes me feel alive. This morning I woke up at 5:15…
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4 things I’ve learned since starting meditation in October
I’ve been meditating for two-ish months now, first for 20 minutes twice a day, now for 40 minutes twice a day…in a month I’ll be meditating for an hour twice a day, time permitting. Here’s what I’ve learned since starting back in October: What does your meditation journey look like? What’s been the biggest challenge…
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things are about to change
I’ve been working through some medication changes with my doctor and things have been appearing bleak to me. I’ve been sleeping over 12 hours every night, struggling with my mind & thoughts, not exercising enough or meditating, and overall managing a pretty negative self-image. I’m going to start practicing the 5-4-3-2-1 rule to start waking…
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our furry friends
there’s something so special about furry friends that become family they melt our hearts and fit into the crux of our hands so beautifully one day they return to pet heaven where they get to dance and play unfortunately, they don’t come back and there they will stay and so with a tender heart I…
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surrender
The mind is filled, no SWIMMING with little fish, big fish, sharks even. “Be happy, you deserve it.” “No one gets you, don’t bother trying.” “You’ll never find happiness, no matter where you look.” The hunter bird in me begs to dive to the bottom of the ocean and find a fish…but my consciousness says…
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sinking into my heart
I sit in my bed and let the consciousness of my mind sink down into my heart. Out of my thoughts, out of my mind, out of the playground that’s currently being inhabited by ten rowdy kids. I sink into this oasis of peace that is the consciousness of my body and begin to feel…
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There are so many things I wish older self could tell me
I’m sitting down to reflect on what I’ve learned at this mid-year point, and I’m realizing there is still so much further to go… My gut tells me the gurus are right, the goal of life is to realize you’re not your mind…I have found and viscerally experienced that this is where true freedom lies,…
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The Beauty of Bipolar – it wakes You up
I’m not saying that bipolar isn’t the most challenging, heart-wrenching, stare-into-the-abyss-and-scream mental illness there is, but I AM saying there’s a reason for it. And I will explain why in the following: Bipolar disorder is, first, and foremost, a mood disorder. It affects our moods, and as Adyashanti, popular meditation and spiritual teacher, points out,…
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a sweet day, today
The day is sweet. My life is filled with charisma, and I dance with unicorns and belay into the red-wooded forest as my sweat transforms into sod-y pop, rich with the nutrients of a gay dandelion. At least this is what my soul would have me believe. In reality, in MY reality none-the-less, I am…
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